#MayIBeBrave 5 Day Instagram Challenge

I love Instagram! It’s where I focus most of my community building and marketing these days. I decided to host an all new challenge for May and I couldn’t be more excited!

#MayIBeBrave 5 Day Instagram Challenge Starts May 2nd 2016 from Kendra Kantor | http://kendrakantor.com

Right click on the image above and select “download as” or “save as” to share and declare your intention to be BRAVE on Instagram!

#MayIBeBrave is a 5 day Instagram Challenge from May 2nd – May 6th 2016. The theme is BRAVERY.

What does it mean to be brave? I view bravery as tapping into your inner strength. I don’t usually think of myself as brave but in reality, I am. I have gone through many hard times and downs with my depression and anxiety and have come out the other side a stronger woman. I feel brave for facing each day, brave for continuing to pursue my dreams and brave for not giving up.

This challenge is all about connecting with that inner strength, that little spark that hides inside of all of us and seeing what happens when we embrace and utilize it. Over the 5 days, you may be challenged, you may feel scared or vulnerable but I hope you push through and see what comes up.

The prompts for the week:

May 2nd – Snap a selfie!
May 3rd – Try something new today! (here are some ideas)
May 4th – “I am afraid of…” and “I show courage by…”
May 5th – Someone (or thing) that makes you brave or that you want to be brave for.
may 6th – Share a goal you tend to hold close to your heart, a goal you want the bravery to pursue.

“There are so many ways to be brave in this world. Sometimes bravery involves laying down your life for something bigger than yourself, or for someone else. Sometimes it involves giving up everything you have ever known, or everyone you have ever loved, for the sake of something greater.

But sometimes it doesn’t.

Sometimes it is nothing more than gritting your teeth through pain, and the work of every day, the slow walk toward a better life.

That is the sort of bravery I must have now.”
― Veronica Roth, Allegiant

Want to join in?

Put your info in the link up below for Instagram and then repost the image above. Be sure to use the hashtag #MayIBeBrave so we can find your posts! Then get brave and snap your shots each day from May 2nd – May 6th and post them. Be sure to use the hashtag each day as I will be re-posting and sharing my favorites on my account.

You can also sign up for my newsletter to gain access to my private facebook group and join us ALL MONTH LONG to talk about BRAVERY. Click HERE to sign up.

heart kendra

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I’m a Stay At Home Mom, and I Suck At It.

"I’m a Stay At  Home Mom,  and I Suck At It. by Kendra Kantor |http://kendrakantor.com

I’ve talked before about how I hate play, or how I’m not good at it. Maybe it’s purely mindset, maybe it’s my personality but I have a difficult time making Tails or BuzzLightyear talk about nothing and everything for hours upon hours on end.

Does it make me a bad mom that at least 50% of the time, I ignore his, “Make Tails talk mommy.”?

He asks the moment I stop talking or in the middle of a different activity. (And of course, I can’t take my hand off the damn doll or he’s not really the one talking.)

We split our days between video games, books and his half-hearted attempt at the crafts I come up with because he is less creatively inclined than I am.

Even though he is fast approaching his 4th year of life, I have yet to learn patience.

When he takes 30 seconds too long to wash his hands, I get a bit on edge. I often find myself pausing as I encourage him to hurry up because…really? What is the harm if he plays a little with the water? Not a damn thing.

Every day, my husband comes home and we have a family dinner together. No matter what we are eating (cereal, or salad and chicken, or taco bell) the three of us sit at the table together while we eat. Our sons asks, ”Daddy what did you do at work today?” and we learn all about the frustrations of drafting.

I tell my husband about what our almost 4-year-old and I did that day. And I am deflated, anxious and berating myself at the end because the list is always too damn short.

I am so often plagued with guilt over what I’ve done or haven’t done or could do more of.

Yes, we have great days. Days where we read 20 books, do an art project all the way through or go to the library for hours and hours. But that is maybe 1 day out of 5 each week.

I am frustrated by my current word block, content block. Creatively I am not blocked. I paint and doodle, we cut and glue things together during each day. But words. Words fail me, this space remains quiet and I don’t know what to say.

When I manage to get a few minutes to hop online to check my email and try to collaborate or write, my son interrupts me: “Mommy, watch this!” (I’ve seen it 1000 times.) “Mommy help me.” (He can play the game in his sleep, he doesn’t need my help). “Mommy read this!” (those are subtitles and the characters are literally saying it for you.)….I tell him “Let me finish this,” because I don’t want to stop in the middle of a sentence or an edit.

…2 seconds later “Are you done? Mommy?” He runs off the couch and crowds my office “Mmomy? Close your computer. Mommy come read this. Mommy.”

And so, I am disappointed, full of doubt in my business and my lack of words and then he’s screaming for help he doesn’t need with a video game he’s played 10000 times and so suddenly I’m frustrated that I just can’t finish typing a sentence. And then feeling guilty when he keeps telling me to just turn off the computer. And at that point, I want to play even less than normal.

And yet I must.

I try my hardest to break up his screen time with engagement. With tons of books or imaginative play. Something active like the park or scientific like melting ice. But it never feels like enough. Do I have to be engaging and playful and teaching every second of everyday?? I don’t know.

I don’t think so but this guilt of being a stay at home mom and failing at motherhood and business weighs so heavy.

Here’s the truth (mine and yours):

I am not a bad mother for feeling like this.
I am not a bad mother for having bad days.
I am not a bad mother for having a lot of bad days.

Because, truthfully, even our bad days aren’t too awful. And even when they are, we make up for it the next day or the next or the next.

He’s always learning, always thinking and his ability to focus and play a skilfully challenging video games at the age of 3 astounds me.

We balance the good and the bad everyday and I won’t ever be perfect but every day is a new day.

Every day, I can try again. I can try new balance, new habits and routines. I can continue to search for childcare and I can continue to love my son with every single part of me, even when I’m frustrated.

Share in the comments your motherhood truth.

heart kendra

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Journal Prompt: Your Bad Day Permission Slip

Journal Prompt: Bad Day Permission Slip by Kendra Kantor | http://kendrakantor.com

We all have bad days. Whether we are dealing with anxiety or depression or just the stress of a full time job and being a mom. Or just…LIFE. Last week, I had a really bad Monday. Like, my son told me I cut his toast wrong and I almost had a panic attack over it kind of bad.

And so when I sat down to work on my journal, that bad day was on my mind. That day and others like it I’ve had in the past. I have lists and ideas of things that I can do to pull myself (and you) out of a funk, but sometimes those don’t work and on those days, I really need “permission” to be lazy or to just survive.

On bad days, I give myself permission to…

What do I need on bad days? How can I allow myself to just survive?

What’s the worst that can happen if I take a day “off”?

Journal Prompt: Bad Day Permission Slip by Kendra Kantor | http://kendrakantor.com

On bad days, I give myself permission to…
-take a nap
-let J play video games
-feel no guilt
-have ice cream for lunch
-disappear from social media
-ask for help

Journal Prompt: Bad Day Permission Slip by Kendra Kantor | http://kendrakantor.com

Get started on this journal page with a free downloadable journal card. Sized 4in x 5in, this psd file is perfect for digital journaling or printing out. Includes 5 custom arrows and text. Pop your email address below to snag it:

Journal Prompt: Bad Day Permission Slip by Kendra Kantor | http://kendrakantor.com
supplies used : strathmore mixed media journal, pilot precise v7 (similar).

This week, I encourage you to take the journal prompts above and think about what you can write or create in your journal that will give you permission to just be, to just survive on those days you need that, without the fear of guilt.

Grab your journal, try out the question and post a link to your finished spread in the comments!

heart kendra

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